Well, besides a quick header change later this month, I think this is it. Thanks, everyone.
This blog and online community were very important to me. Many of the people I've met through it are still important to me. Others have said their good-byes better so instead of poorly floundering about sentimentally, I'll leave you with a picture, some links (a list!) and a promise that if I have something important/funny/interesting to share, I'll gladly be back.
Maybe I'm Being Influenced, Maybe I'm Not
Honesty time-- I've been thinking about leaving MindSay and this last flurry of posts on my part have been an effort to stick around and find a purpose. I know it's gouache to share as I am. I should be strong and leave behind a friendly note explaining my time here and why I'm leaving. But every time I sat down to write it my mind would flash to all the times I asked others to keep blogging, to those people I don't want to leave behind; because I would leave people I love and respect behind. I know myself too well to say I will log back in once I left. At best I would check my journal a month before my visits would taper off. But how stooopid is it that I now feel compelled to stay because other loved ones are leaving? How contrary is it that I don't want to seem a follower so I stick around and try for a renewed attempt at blogging?
Talk about navel-gazing, I look at my posts from years ago and even though I cringe at my spelling and conceit, I admire my enthusiasm and willingness to write. Now, I can't seem to write about anything. Each attempt is aborted due to self-consciousness and boredom.
I'm reapplying myself out of stubbornness, habit and a curiosity to see what's on the other side. If I keep type-type-typing perhaps I will fall into the bloggers' cliche of minimilism or hopefully discover a better voice.
To regular visitors, look, I don't share this information lightly as I know what it's like to be on the receiving end of uncertainty. A blog in this state is like an unfulfilled promise.
#3 Watched/watching:
I'm Reed Fish
Palindromes
The Life Before Her Eyes
Conversations with Other Women
An Ideal Husband
I've now watched Erin Brockovich and am currently playing Welcome to the Dollhouse.
I had so much fun today. I was invited for a day on the town by my sister and there was tasty Japanese, lots of walking, window shopping and and friendly company. It was great.
Thanks everyone, for the birthday wishes. It's been a great birthday.
Updated: In the last post I forgot about the movies Beautiful and Nine Months. I feel compelled to add this for a full accounting to the eclectic state of my old brain.
Added To The List (Movies)
- Dead Like Me (some episodes from Season 2)
- Next
- King of California
- Whale Rider
Ta-dah! This is great.
Movies I've Seen My Birthday Week
- Mannequin (hoo boy)
- Monkey Business (classic)
- Gone Baby Gone (good)
- Blow Dry (funny)
- The Kid (hrm but cute)
- Back to the Future (felt nostalgic for this classic)
Watching Movies And Thinking...
... I'm not going to work this week. It's going to be my birthday-week. I've decided and no one will stop me. Despite a lack of professional pressure, I'm still drawn to organization and lists which provide it. On my list of things to do are the following-
- paint my nails
- take a 5-hour bath with salt and oils and pesto sauce
- watch a smorgasbord of movies
- cook up a couple fancy meals and tasty desserts
- play some video games
...and whatever else I can think up.
I'm interested in the
The Red Leather Diary and thought some of you might be as well. Interview, subject matter and ideas may be of interest. Maybe ever inspiring.
